Green with Envy

I have a confession...I am a very jealous woman. I worry constantly about the new females hubs adds to Facebook, I cringe every time I hear her name. And as of Monday, there will be two of them back at his work. He came home and was like 'oh I can get us coupons for Niagara...' and when I asked him from who he said 'Jessica' oh and he also told me that she just went with her fiance and that she can help us plan our trip if we want her too. UM NO?!?!?!! It's our anniversary...I am sure we can manage. And apparently he showed her a picture of our child and she was like if you guys ever want to go out I will babysit for you!!! First of all, I don't know this girl...so why would I even consider her to babysit my most precious possession? So she can snoop around my house and see what I do wrong as a parent? Also, if I was to go out with Anthony and leave her with my child, would they hang out afterwards?

This one girl is twenty...the other one is between 21 and 25 and was in my class for Anatomy, and a few others. He seems to enjoy woman attention. I don't understand how he can say nothing will ever happen and he is loyal to me. Well I know he has been the past 5 years despite everything we have gone through...but what happens if one day my bipolar disorder is too much for him to handle...the fact that I don't cook a dinner and he spews off to one of them...

Now he has not always been innocent...when I first went out to be with him not only did he take me to a chick's workplace that he later confessed that he kissed while drunk...I was sitting in his bedroom at his parent's place and he was chatting with his female friend who decided to send him a picture of her lying on her bed in her pjs and he said I would totally photograph you. (Not that I am trying to rehash...just pointing out that my fears are not all in vain.)

I feel awful that I feel this way but I am unsure how to shut it off. I just don't want him to ever think I am not good enough...that would devastate me..